The proposal, cont'd.

I feel the need to preface this post by saying that I am still in shock and in awe. My emotions are all over the place, so my writing may not clearly convey all that happened, and for that I'm sorry! I just figured that this would be the easiest and fastest way to let everyone know how he did it.

Poor guy! Everything he had planned, went wrong, according to him. I of course, loved every minute of how it actually turned out. He had planned on recording some songs with Rob on Friday and Saturday, but he got sick, and began to lose his voice Friday morning. He was not happy!!! So, we spent all day Friday and Saturday away from each other because "he had stuff to do". I thought he was going to propose, but I wasn't 100% sure, so I just went and did my thing. But, let's be honest, those two days without him were awful and I hated being away from him!

So, Sunday rolls around, and again, nothing goes according to his plan. He could barely sing for church! So, I assumed nothing was going to happen because he had mentioned over and over how disappointed that the most romantic weekend of his life was ruined...so I just played cool and (tried to) acted normal.

We had a church picnic we had to go to, so we went to that. All the while both of us were trying not to act disappointed in what "could have been..." Lol!!!

To make a very long story short, when we left the picnic, we went to his house to try to relax and watch a movie and eat dinner. However, he had different plans!!!!

I was trying to sit in his lap and just give him a much needed hug, and he told me to sit down on the couch because he had something for me...my heart started to BEAT SO FAST!!!! Still, though, I was trying not to expect anything!!!

He handed me packet of typed papers stapled together and told me to begin to read them. He reiterated that his plans did not go accordingly, and that he was so sorry for that. I didn't care!!! I began to read...the title made me cry!! "Our journey to one" GRRR!!! I was already emotional!

He had taken all of our most memorable and significant moments in our relationship and paired them with verses, songs that he had written me, and how it related to his life prior to me, etc. It was amazing. Essentially, his plan A was to have me do this love journey on my own in my car, going to various spots that meant a lot to us, all while listening to a CD he recorded of his songs that he wrote about and that he wrote for me. Then, I was going to end up at the park and the lake and he'd propose there. But, we did this sitting on the couch, side by side, and imagined all of it. Believe you me, it was so special to have him with me. I'm so glad it ended up this way because it was a really wonderful moment to share.

He used a hymn by William Cowper called, "God Moves in a Mysterious Way" to set the stage. He divided each verse and told why he felt that song had relevance with us. The 4th verse, "behind a frowning providence, he hides a smiling face" has always been what he has said to me..that I'm his smiling face behind everything that was bad and that if he had to go through everything again to get to this point, he'd do it. He has also made me several cards calling me his pearl of great price that he'd sell everything for in order to just have that one pearl...me! It was so amazing. Then, he used Song of Solomon. And as you know, I LOVE LOVE LOVE that book! I love the symbolism, and so what better way to express love to the woman you're asking to be your bride than by comparing it to the ultimate example...Jesus and the Church!

I feel like I'm skipping over so much stuff, so I'll fill in the gaps later, I just wanted everyone to know the basics of what happened.

So, then when we finished reading it, I was still not sure he was going to do it because he just sat there for about 5 minutes...and I was like, "Okay..awkward!!! What do I say?" Then, he hit one knee and said the sweetest words I've ever heard anyone say, "So, with all my heart, will you marry me?" And, he pulled out the ring I wanted...a pearl!! A pearl of great price! I was speechless, as I am now even as I write this. I couldn't even utter a word, but all I could do was hug him. At this point, I was on the verge of sobbing and completely breaking down into those tears you can't control...you know what I'm talking about!!! And he was crying too...which made it even harder for me to not break down. I wanted to at least be able to speak to him!! Literally all we could do was just cry and hug...it was so SWEET and tender. I loved it and am still in shock. So, I'm going to leave it at that. I'll write more soon, but it's hard for me to sit down and write this now, because there are just so many emotions!!! I can't believe it! I'm so happy!!!